* *WARNING: This post contains spoiler for the Twilight series by Stephanie Meyer, most specifically the last book Eclipse. If you have any intention to read them PLEASE don’t read this. It would suck if it was spoiled to this extent.**
…from the latest installment in the Twilight series – Eclipse. I started Twilight last Monday, I finished New Moon this past Saturday and now it’s Thursday and I was up until 1:30AM to finish Eclipse. I reached a point of now return in the book where I was so hurt and upset that I decided I could not put off the ending another day and have to go through it all again.
I am really distraught over the ending of Eclipse. I’ve been visiting the message boards and getting even more distraught because no one else seems to be on my side.
At the beginning of New Moon I was crying over Edward leaving Bella. By the end of Eclipse I was crying WORSE over Bella leaving Jacob. And now I’m just really confused by the direction the story took and how things can move forward from here. Stephanie Meyer introduced Jacob so strongly and now Bella’s going to marry Edward and I’m stuck with a wrenching pain in my chest every time I think about it. I’m hoping that me being this upset about it is just a product of the whole situation and stress in my life right now. I’m strung out over this book like I was when Justin left Brian in the last episode of Queer as Folk and like I was after the last episodes of Buffy and Angel. And why? So that the stupid girl will go and run off with the nasty vampire.
After this installment of the series I really hate Edward and Bella – and that’s supposed to be the center of the series. I’m not sure how I’m going to enjoy the next book if that is really what’s supposed to happen next. And I’m a complete minority when it comes to the people who have been reading these books.
Why did she have to make everything with Jacob so heart-wrenching? If it was going to come down to Edward in the end it would have been much easier for me if she hadn’t shared the vision Bella had of her and Jacob and their kids when they kissed. To know that Bella and Jacob SHOULD have been together in the end, were it not for some stupid vampires – that’s what’s stuck in my head and what keeps pulling me back down.
The worst part is that I saw it coming throughout the whole book. There were times where I could hardly bring myself to keep reading because I really felt like Jacob was doomed. It made the whole experience somewhat uncomfortable and not nearly as enthralling as the others. Don’t get me wrong, I loved the book and I’m sure I will be right there when the next one comes out and maybe someday I’ll read this one again. I just wish everything could go back to the way it was in the first two books.
This whole marriage thing? Ugh! That must be the mormon garbage talking. The whole thing was making me sick. I got really frustrated with the story. After reading the whole thing I just simply cannot understand how you can justify Bella’s character choosing Edward over Jacob. I really doesn’t make any sense to me and I hate to say that I feel like a lot of that has to do with it being a young adult book. It just started to feel to unrealistic in this one and I was starting to feel like the story was somewhat wasted because of the outcome. She really didn’t need to jam here point about Jacob home so hard. While so many people find the character of Jacob to be a nuisance and annoying I really took to it and now I’m feeling like I hate the rest of the story because it just doesn’t make any sense.
Oh well, now that it’s off my chest (and my family and friends are probably thinking I need to be committed) I’m starting to feel a little better. If I can keep myself occupied I hopefully won’t keep replaying the scenes in my head. Yep, I feel silly right now for taking it so hard. Whatever – I guess that just goes to show how strong the characters in these stories are.