If you feel like making changes in your world – DO IT. Don’t ask anyone’s permission, don’t let anyone ask you if you’re sure. You’ll know when the time is right.
One of the first things I wanted to do was get my house in order. I spent almost a complete week confused, tired and zoned out. People were constantly around, which was a good thing, and were doing everything for me. After that, I needed to start doing things again. You know, like shower and walk away from Facebook for more than 10 minutes at a time.
Once everyone left and I was left on my own I needed to get my house back in order. It was one thing that I had control over – that I could change. I could do the dishes and see results. In a moment of clarity I had a urge to CLEAN (eeck…) and add a couple of simple things to my living room. I went to Target and realized, “wow…I can pick whatever I want.” Not that we normally disagreed about things to put in the house, but I didn’t have to wait and ask anyone elses opinion. It was kinda liberating.
So that started the ball rolling. The next major step was claiming a space for myself. That turned out to be the master bedroom. I wanted it to be mine, with the bedding I wanted, with a chair for me to read in, with the artwork that I liked on the walls. I wanted to erase the traces of him from the room if I was going to sleep in there again. And I wanted to be able to share MY room with someone again in the future.
It was only two weeks. It’s probably fast to a lot of people but it was the right timing for me.